Sunday, December 16, 2012

Reflection

I am overwhelmed this Christmas.  I have so much to be thankful for!  2012 has been an "interesting" year to say the least!! Ups and downs:   I was nominated Teacher of the Year for my school for 2011-2012, we lost a very dear friend to a horrible disease, I was diagnosed with non Hodgkins lymphoma, and the list goes on and on...Many highs and many lows but this has been an AMAZING year in so many ways too!!    

I told my mom this week that I get a little choked up while buying Christmas gifts this year. The gifts are chosen very carefully with much thought going into them. I always do this, but this year, it just seems to mean so much more to me.  

I am so grateful for my family!  We have weathered many storms together and I am SOOO glad I have them to help me along this path of life.  I honestly don't think I would have enough words to express how much I love them.  Each one of them!   

I have been blessed through friendship this past year in a mighty way.  God put a couple of ladies across my path several years ago but through all of "this", we have grown so close.  They have laughed, cried, prayed, and simply loved.  My daddy always told me: "Em, if you can count on ONE HAND 5 GREAT friends.  You've been truly blessed!"  He is soooooo right on the money with that statement!  Two women, in particular, have truly stood in the gap for me over the past 8 months and I don't know what I would have done without them.  They have helped me keep my eyes on the goal, picked me up on some rough days, held my hand and let me cry, and encouraged me all along the way. 

Yes.  I am truly overwhelmed this Christmas season.  God is good!!


Until next time,

E

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Another milestone

I conquered another milestone in this season of my life today.  I completed the St. Jude 5K.  I am very pleased to tell you that my official time was 34 minutes.  (Pretty good for a girl whose body has been put through the RINGER the past 7 months, dontcha think?!?)  

I didn't cross that finish line alone either.  My awesome brother and sister-in-law never left my side (even when I had to stop and walk a minute).  Today was another emotional day for me.  Actually, this past WEEK has been emotional.  No, I do not need to take anti-depressants--it's simply part of this battle that is raging on and I think it's perfectly normal and GOOD for me to release these emotions (sorry if you happen to be the one who "sets" the tears off--it's not "you" --just quite simply the ride of this journey).


I actually think I am going to frame this year's race bib and medal alongside my last year's full, 26.2 marathon race bib and medal.  After all...these are my two marathons.  :0)  


I head back to the hospital for round #10 next week.  Last week's visit to my oncologist was a good visit.  He said my blood counts and all of my levels "look GREAT!".  Praise the Lord!!   I am so thankful and blessed beyond measure.

I took numerous pictures along the way today that I plan on posting as soon as I figure out how!  HA!  It's been a year since I've done that and I am going to have to call my sis-in-law to walk me through the process.  Not a "techi" person...my friend that passed away this year always made fun of my lack of knowledge in this area....that's what friends are for, right?!  LOL 

Anyway--I'm off to rest and relax.  Wishing you a wonderful weekend!!  God bless you!!

Until next time,

E

Friday, November 16, 2012

So I'm just going to be honest with yall and tell ya:  I am SOOO glad next week is Thanksgiving break!!  I am T.I.R.E.D lately!!  I need a break!!

There's so much going on at school this time of year that it's hard to come up for air!  We have Thanksgiving holiday, an upcoming music program for our grade (which makes the kids CUH-RAZY at school because they are out of their routine!), Grandparents' Day and then Christmas is just around the corner.  Time seems to be FUH-LING by and there aren't enough hours in the day to get things done!  And this time change?!?!  Ugh!  It's DARK so early!  Boy....I might be complaining a little today, eh?  I don't mean to be, necessarily....this is just the busiest I have been since, uhhhh...let's just say it's been a while I have had this kind of "stress"!!  LOL  and it's kind of throwing this girl for a loop!  I ran only once this week (which is okay....right?).  

I am excited to see my "whole" family during Thanksgiving this year.  My aunt and her family will be in from overseas and I have not seen her in several years (how bad does THAT sound!?!) and my uncle who is HYSTERICAL will be driving over to see all of us too.  I'm expecting a great time catching up with our family over the break.  We have SO.MUCH. to be thankful for!!! 

Well, I hope this "note" finds all of you well and I'm wishing you a peaceful and BLESSED Thanksgiving!!!

Until next time!!

E

 

Sunday, November 11, 2012

My, what a year can bring!

I ran my first 5K since all of this began with me.  I initially stopped running in the spring because of the excruciating headaches I was having.  Although it really isn't that long to a lot of people:  I have missed being "me" and my running...

A precious friend told me about the race 2 weeks ago.  She told me it benefitted fallen soldiers.  What a great cause to run for on Veterans Day weekend! 

Another close friend drove a little over an hour to accomplish this milestone with me.  This is HUGE as she doesn't consider herself a "runner"....yeah, well, honey, that has changed!  ;0) 

The opening ceremony was really sweet.  There were a couple of speakers and our Pledge and National Anthem.  Truly beautiful. 

After the quick ceremony they called for the "runners" to line up in the front of the line.  "This is IT!!!",  I thought. And the tears began to flow.  I choked them back really quick because I really wasn't expecting to be emotional about a 3 mile run.  Afterall, this time last year I was pushing 20!!  (But THAT'S a whole different "story"!)  Anyway....my 2 friends and I prayed and then we were off and running!  Again....tears.  I broke out into what I thought was a decent stride only to be dismayed around .8th of a mile.  Shin splints.....GRRRRRR!!!  (It's what I get for not stretching beforehand)  Needless to say, I perservered through one of the HARDEST races I have run since I began running races (a little over 7 years ago).  My emotions were a bit all over the place and I cried like a baby when I crossed the finishline, just like I did when I crossed after 26.2 miles....yet another milestone in my marathon training of life. 

God is so good. 

The sweet friend that told me about this race gave me balloons and a sweet card at the end.  She typed the following verse and glued it on the inside:


And He said to me , "My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness."  Most gladly, then, I will rather glory in my infirmities that the power of Christ may rest upon me...for when I am weak, then, I AM STRONG.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
(Yes, tears again (and every time I read the card) ...I can't help myself.  God gave us emotions and my tears are "tears of cleansing" ---according to my precious MAMA!!  Not to mention:  this is an emotional ride, people!!) 


God bless!!

-E


Monday, November 5, 2012

Something exciting is in the air!

Exciting news, people!  I have officially registered for TWO 5ks!  Can I get a whoop whoop!!!  Those of you that know me well, know that I LOOOVE to run in races.  It's not necessarily the running, but the BUZZ in the air at a race that I love!  I love watching people warm up and seeing the comrodary of people of all walks of life coming together.   I also like to bet in my mind who's going to be the fastest!  HA!  (I'm usually surprised by who ends up with a fast time!)   

My first 5k is this weekend.  I'm amped!  I may not have the fastest time but by-golly I will have the MOST determination!  My second 5k is for St. Jude December 1st--and I can't WAIT for it!  THAT's my FAVORITE race to run during the year....talk about PEOPLE!  WHEW!!  10s of 1000s and I am NOT exaggerating!!  From the racers to the supporters,  it's incredible.  People of all ages and places come out to support this weekend event.  It's AWESOME!  I tell people all the time if you've never experienced it, you should!  At least once! 

Speaking of 5Ks, I love my sister-in-law!    I got the sweetest text from her this morning.  She told me that I had been on her mind all morning.  She was thinking about my year and the things that I have done and faced.  Ultimately the text told me that she and my brother have registered and will run the 5k with me in December.  She told me that they were going to "cross that finish line" with me this year.  This text sent me into tears.  I choked them back for a good 5 minutes!  You see, my brother and s.i.l are avid runners, so 3 miles is a mere "stroll" for them.  Crossing that finish line is a metaphor for what's going on in our family these days.  It will represent so much to us.  Not a time.  Not a percentage.  Not even a medal.  No, that finish line that we are going to cross represents perserverence to the enth degree and that no one is alone in this family.  I am so VERy thankful for the love and support of my family.  I knew we were a close knit group before all of this started, but let me tell you....there's a bond here that's hard to break, my friends!  I say it all the time and I will say it again:  I am so VERY BLESSED!!! 


Happy Tuesday!! GO VOTE!!!

Until next time,
E

 

Saturday, November 3, 2012

WHEW! October was a whirlwind!

I seriously cannot believe it is November already.  October was a mere whirlwind to me!  It's also hard to believe this whole thing that's been going on with me is taking on its 6th month....time flies when you're having "fun", right?  ;0)  You won't hear me complain though.  Although tough at times, God isn't finished with me yet and I can honestly say I am learning SOOO very much from this whole experience.  The thing that has impressed me the most: people need the Lord and just want to know that someone cares.  Even if it's a simple card, email, text, or phone call----so many people are hurting.  We live in such a fast paced, exciting life these days, I think we often think we can't slow down, but we should.  That's why we're here...to love each other. 

I had a BUSY week at school this week.  If you have never experienced Halloween week at a school, you are REALLY "missing out".  HA!  But ESPECIALLY Halloween on a WEDNESDAY!!!??!?!?!?  I was SO. TIRED. by Friday that my body ached!  Seriously....even my assistant asked me : "WHAT have you done to me this WEEK!?  I feel like I have been in a BOXING RING!!"  (hee heee...not me, babe, not me...)  I felt the same way.  All kiddos from kindergarten to seniors in high school are totally excited about dressing up and trick-or-treating that it's exhausting.  THEEEN, you throw in all of the CANDY!?!?  Serious sugar rushes.  Of AAALL ages.  I'm just glad this week is over!  ;0)  A friend of mine said : "I just wish we could change Halloween.  I wish it was a 'set' Saturday in October.  The last Saturday of October!"  ---GIRL.FRIEND!  FABULOUS IDEA!!!  Even we parents are a weary once it's all said and done.  Onto THANKSGIVING!!!  

Speaking of thankfulness:  my next round of chemo will be Dec. 5th.  If you count it up, that's in a whopping 5 weeks....YEEEE HAAAAAAAAA I will  DEFINTLEY  enjoy my Thanksgiving break!!! 

Anywho--things are still going well.  God truly has me under His Divine Protection.  I am so very thankful for the blessings of health, healing, hope, family, and friends.  He is GOOD!!

Until next time, peeps!!

E

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Life is Good!

I am still amazed that "people" are "amazed" by what I do and how I am doing .  I have said it from the very beginning of this curveball of life and I will continue to say it and believe it:  God has got me in the very PALM of His hand and I am under His Divine Protection.  He is my PROVIDER and my STRENGTH, in HIM I will find PROTECTION and STRENGTH.  After all, He tells us in His very Word:  I can do ALL things through CHRIST who STRENGTHENS  me!!  From the crown of my head to the soles of my feet I am believe Him and am putting my faith and trust in HIM.   

I am up to about 3 miles of running now (can I get a whoop whoo!!!)  There are good days and bad, as anytime, with training or trying to build stamina, no matter where you start!  BUT....I have a NEW PARTNER!!!  Yes, yes and I am SOOO EXCITED to have her!!!  My very best bud, Kim, has decided to take up running too....wooooHOOOOO!!!  Our dear ole Scott would be ALL OVER this!  He used to pick on her unmercifully about running but GUESS WHAT, BUDDY!?!?  SHE'S DOING IT!!  We do miss him terribly....

I got GREAT news from my oncologist this past week!!!  He told me I am doing "so great, no side effects, and no major issues", that he is going to "knock back your MRIs from every month to every OTHER month.  I don't see the need for a monthly MRI at this point.  Nothing is showing up."  PEOPLE!!!  CAN I GET AN AMEN?!?!?  AAANNNDDD.....HE TOLD ME I COULD HIGHLIGHT MY HAIR AGAIN!!!  WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO  LIFE. IS. GOOD!!!  So, I made an appointment with my girl for 8:00 this past Saturday morning and I am BLONDE AGAIN!!  YIIPPPPEEEEEE!!!  (it really is the little things in life!!  ))

Anywho....I check into the hospital this Wednesday after school.  I am trying to remain positive and keep good thoughts about what's headed my way.  Any extra prayers are GREATLY appreciated!!  I am anxiously awaiting the words:  "You don't need any more chemo".  I am praying and believing I will hear these words MUUUUCH sooner than intiallly planned.  Afterall....I haven't been a "textbook" case with this lymphoma from the beginning. (But we all knew this to begin with, right???)

Have a blessed week!  Keeping thoughts and talk positive!!

Until next time,
E

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Life is GOOD!

This has been the BEST week!  I have run 5 days in a ROW and did it WELL!  WOOOHOOOOOOO!!  I feel amazing and I look forward to the upcoming week.  Life seems to be returning to normal (baseball is over for the year). 

Today has been a great day.  Started off with a morning run, grocery store, and then....sit down and brace yourself.... I COOKED!!  HA!  I'm not talking just some little thing, people!  I'm talking about:  buffalo dip (hey-it's FOOTBALL SEASON!!), a big pot of vegetable soup, and not 1, but TWO chicken pot pies!  Yes, folks, E is feeling her Wheaties these days!  :0) 

I hope yall are enjoying this AWESOME fall weather!  If you're not:    GET OUTSIDE AND ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN!! 

Anywho...have a fabulous Sunday!

Until next time,

E

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Family Time

Went home to celebrate my nephew's 4th birthday.  It was so great to go home.  I love going home in the fall!  It's one of my favorite times of the year.  I told my mom today that her house is so peaceful in the country, I could've sat on the porch and listened to the rain pitter-patter all day today.  Sometimes that's just what we need to do, isn't it?  Stop and "listen"....

Welp, another work week ahead.  Last week was a good first week back.  I was tired early on but by Friday, I was good to go!  I am trying to instill routines that I want done in my classroom and this will take time nd LOTS of PRACTICE!  HA!  "Slow and steady wins the race"---seems to be my motto for life these days.

Hope yall have a great week!

Until next time,

E

Monday, September 24, 2012

I'm BACK!

Well, today was my first day back to school and let me tell you:  IT FELT GREAT!! My sweet peers welcomed me with breakfast, had a pot-luck lunch and made me feel so loved!  It was so good to see my friends again!  I have MISSED THEM!!!  After running in to beat the time clock :0)  ((keep in mind I have not been at work for almost 5 months, people!  Naturally I would be running around like a chicken with its head cut off the first day back.....right?  riiiiiiiiight??  Of COURSE!!))  
 I was so ready to finally meet my new students!! The day FUH-LEW by, to say the least!  My assistant and I were "movin' and shakin'" trying to stay ahead of the "pack"  HA!   All in all it was a good day and I can't wait to go back tomorrow! 

Hope everyone has a great week! 

Until next time!!

E

Saturday, September 22, 2012

WHEW!

Well, here I am once AGAIN attempting to get back into a routine of RUNNING!  Couch to 5K, day 1 completed AGAIN but this time I am anticipating a long stretch of actual training with no interruptions.  It's been so hard to attempt to run within a regular regimen when I was going into the hospital every other week for 4 days at a time.  

I am going to register for St. Jude 5K today.  It's time.  Those of you that know me well, know that the St. Jude Marathon weekend is one of my FAVORITE things to do during the year! 

Another beautiful Saturday ahead ladies and gents!  Get out and ENJOY THE WEATHER! 

Until next time!!

E

Friday, September 21, 2012

Round 8!

Round #8 finished!  Whoop whoop!!  Now I get 5-6 weeks "off" before my next round of chemo.  I am SO THRILLED words cannot even EXPRESS how "free" I feel today.  Again....I can't imagine how I will feel this time next year when my doctor says :"Okay...all clear!"  Whoop Whoop!

Back to school on Monday.  I am excited to get back into the classroom and into my routine of "life".  My children are SO. EXCITED I will be returning to work (???), who knows what that's about !  HA!  I'm seriously thinking it's because it's our "normal".  

Anywho....it's a BEEEAUTIFUL day outside!  Hope yall can get out and enjoy some of this AWESOME weather God is showering us with!  Hope ya have a great weekend!!


'Til next time!!

E

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

RING THAT BELL HARD, HONEY!

WHAT AN AMAZING DAY I HAVE HAD TODAY!!  I had an MRI this morning and it looked great AAANND:
  1.  NO MORE CHEMOS AT THE CLINIC
  2.  AFTER NEXT WEEK'S CHEMO IN THE HOSPITAL, I DON'T HAVE TO GO BACK IN UNTIL 6 WEEKS!!! 

CAN I GET A WHOOP!  WHOOP!! 

The nurse today made a BIG announcement in the chemo room that today was my LAST INFUSION WITH THEM!!  WHOO HOOOO And....of course, I got completely choked up and emotional about it.  A GOOD emotional.  Tears of JOY!!  Then Hubby said: "let's go outside and you RING THAT BELL HARD!" (There is a big bell outside of the clinic that people ring once they've completed their treatments.  Again...tears of joy!) 

I feel like I am just about to tip the top of this hill I have been climbing and it feels SO. DANG. GOOD, PEOPLE!! 

I hope yall are having a good week.  Almost Friday! 

Until next time!!!

E

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Busy, Exciting Life

Well!  Let me just tell you:  the past week has been an "exciting" one in our little ole family!  ;0)

We will be celebrating a wedding this upcoming spring!  Fun, FUN!  My cousin (although he's more like a little brother than a "cousin") and his sweet fiance have set a date in March.  Definitely something to look forward to!

And....my little brother and his crazy friends went alligator hunting.  Yes....I said ALLIGATOR HUNTING!!!  Initially, my reaction was : you're stupid.  WHY would you INTENTIONALLY  put yourself in HARM'S WAY for a few minutes of "A THRILL"!?!?  But now that they're all safe and sound and HOME....it's kind of cool (in a twisted kind of way).  I haven't actually talked to him about his whole "experience" but I have seen pictures.  Quite frankly, that may be enough for this big sister (especially since I STILL tend to be slightly overprotective of him). 

Anywho....back to school in 2 weeks and I can't. WAIT!  So ready to meet and get to know my students and get in a "normal" routine.  Our lives have been "slightly" turned upside down, inside out and the "normalcy" is a welcome to this family. 

Have yall been outside today!?!?!?  Holy MOLY It. Is. AMAZING!  I can't WAIT to get out in it and watch the youngest play some baseball.  :0) 

Happy Sunday to you and yours!  May you have a blessed week!! 

Until next time....
E

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Maybe a little clarification??

So, I think I need to help clarify what's going on with me in the "chemo realm" these days.  Several people have called or texted soooo....here goes:

June 11th was my first round of chemo.  There were set to be 8 rounds of this every 14 days.  2 weeks ago my oncologist told me once this initial phase was finished (which is the week of Sept. 17th), I would have 11 more months of chemo once a month.  Yes....another year of this.  :0/  All I can say at this moment is:  I have trusted God through the last 4 months and I will continue to trust in His way.  Is this easy?  No. But I will not give up and my attitude will remain the same:  I am healed and I believe He has me under His wings of protection. 

I am shooting for the end of September to return to work.  I look forward to this as it will be routine and normalcy in a way (although I would make a GREAT stay at home mom and housewife!). 

I hope everyone had a great long weekend.  We laid low and had a good visit with my little brother and his family. 

'Til next time!!

E

Friday, August 31, 2012

Harder than I thought

So I started walking/jogging this week....hmmm...is it vain of me to say that I SOOO appreciate the shape I was in before say, December 2011?  WOOO WEEEE!!!  It's TOUGH starting at ground zero, people!  I have a totally new appreciation for people that are just starting out.  Although I am thrilled to be walking/jogging again, I am also a little frustrated.  2 miles is hard!!! I have to keep reminding myself that I am just starting back from a pretty "rough" time off...just keep swimming, just keep swimming, la la la la la laaaaa (can't you just hear Dorie from Finding Nemo right now?  You're welcome....  ha ha) 

No new news this week.  I had a pretty encouraging biweekly appointment with my oncologist, or maybe it's just that I know these 14 day chemos are coming to a close?  yippeee!!!!

Hope yall have a great Labor Day weekend!  Be safe!! 

E

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Been a long time...

Well, now....it's been a while since my last post.  Nothing really new going on with me.  Keep on keepin' on---that's what I do! ;0) 

Two more chemos that are only 2 weeks apart , whew!  Will NOT miss going in every other week for THAT! then 11 months of once a month chemo.  Ick, but it's better than the prior.  I'm thinking the "worst" parts of this are over:  EXCRUCIATING headaches, BRAIN SURGERY  ( !!!! ),  and 14-day chemos.  Yes....I have topped that hill and will be on the downward slope soon.  Again-- thanks to everyone for your words of encouragement and PRAYERS!  THEY ARE WORKING!!!  :0) 

The doctor told me I could start working my way back into running.  WHHOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO!!!!  I cried when he told me that.  This week, I began walking the neighborhood.  It's hard not to jog some, but I have promised many people I would go slow and I am going to try to keep that promise.  BUT!!!  My goal IS to run/jog by December.  I want to try the St. Jude 5K this year.  I haven't run/walked it in several years so it should be fun! 

Hope this blog finds everyone well.  I hope to return to work at the end of September--looking forward to finally meeting my kiddos and getting to know them!  My personal children are ready for their mama to return to work!  I am constantly asked when "are you going to be a teacher again?"  I love that!  I tell them all the time that I am still a teacher.  Their response:  "No, I mean....when will you GO BACK TO TEACHING!?"  Love those munchkins!  Normalcy is what they want, dontcha think? 

Anyway---have a TERRIFIC TUESDAY, PEEPS!!  LOVE TO ALL AND MAY THE LORD BLESS YOU TODAY!!!

E

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Blessings

I am totally feeling God's love today.  I'm having such a great day!!  Lots of energy, visited with LOTS of friends, hubby surprised me with LOTS of roses (6 dozen, but who's counting...) and flowers (just because...gotta love that!), and going to spend time with some old friends that ALWAYS make me LAUGH!!  (Hoping one of 'em is "on her game" tonight!  She's definitely the entertainment.  If you're reading this....you know who you are!!  Love ya, sis!!) 

Thankful for my many, MANY blessings today!! 

Blessings to you and yours,
E

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Today is..

God showed up again today, peeps!  He is good and faithful.  I'm so thankful to have a Heavenly Father that cares even about the small things! He knows me, loves me, and is always there!  Thank you, Lord for all the blessings in my life! 

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Officially on the downhill part of the slope!

That's right!!  5 rounds down and 3 to go of the every 14 days of chemo.  WOOHOOOO  Almost there, almost there, almost there!  I can defintely see the light at the end of the tunnel!  (Which, by the way, I LOOOVE that song!)  There' s a light at the end of this tunnel, there's a light at the end of this tunnel, there's a light at the end of this tunnel fooooor meeee....I can't think of the person that sings it off the top of my head....

Anywho--hoping to go home tomorrow.  All of my counts and levels are looking great.  I'm telling you, God is so merciful!!!  He has TRULY had me under his wings like Psalm 91 says. I'm looking forward to seeing my troops tomorrow and hearing all about their first week of school!  Next summer I think we will have an extra couple of weeks of summer which is AWESOME!!!  Maybe we can "make up" for this summer, eh?  :)


Hope yall have had a good week so far!  Almost Friday!!  Keep on keepin' on!!!

Blessings

E

Monday, August 6, 2012

Inspiration

So, we're back at the hospital.  All is well so far.  Chemo got started about 6 p.m. and should finish up around 10 tonight.  Hoping to sleep through the icky feeling that seems to tag along with it all. 

There is a man here that was walking the hall tonight.  He is a triathlete.  He came in today after running 4 miles and biking 20 miles.  HOW. COOL. IS HE!?!?  Talk about determination!!!   Very inspiring! 

First day of school for all of the kiddos in our county.  All went well with ours.  I choked back tears leaving the youngest, not because I am typically at work and would be there with him, but because I wouldn't be there to welcome my children home from their first day of school.  It really IS the little things that mean so much in this thing we call life.  Don't take for granted the small moments, my friends, for time passes by too quickly!! ((Needless to say, I got a "play by play" from him about his day.  YAY!  The oldest simply said : "we had FUN, mom!".  Gotta love the difference in their personalities!))  

Monday, Monday, what a FUN day!  Hope yall have a fantabulous week!  Keep on keepin' on...

Blessings!

E

Sunday, August 5, 2012

WHEW!

LET ME TELL YOU....I WAS SOOOO BLESSED IN MY CHURCH SERVICE TODAY!!  I was so overwhelmed that I had tears flowing all during the service.  It's like God was talking RIGHT to ME!  WHEW!  He is SO GOOD, people!!  Everything from the worship music to the preaching....loved. it! 

I head back in to the hospital tomorrow for round 5. I am praying that all goes well and there are minimal to NO side effects!  Tomorrow is also the first day of school for students.  We should all pray for the teachers and students as they enter into a fresh new school year.  I pray that God would guide the teachers and give each one wisdom as they navigate so many young lives on a daily basis.  I also pray that the Lord would quicken the students' minds, nerves be calmed, and they would have an ear to listen.  May God bless each of yall reading this!!!

Have a great week!!

Blessings

E

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Going to be another HOT Saturday, peeps!  I know I keep saying this but, I sure am ready for some fall weather.  I am anxious to start "walking" (instead of my usual run/jog) but am a little apprehensive --- even early mornings or late evenings --- because of this HEAT!  ((Plus---my favorite attire is a sweatshirt and shorts!))  ;0) 

I am still feeling great!  I have soooo enjoyed seeing and visiting with friends over the last couple of days.  I am truly blessed.  Love yall! 

Hope everyone enjoys their weekend.  I'm off to the hospital for ROUND 5 of 8 chemo on Monday.  Planning on dropping the bambinos off at school before heading that way. 

Blessings!!

E

Friday, August 3, 2012

Bittersweet

Soooo last night was "Meet the Teacher" night at both kiddos' schools.  Needless to say, the youngest (who is usually the "bulldog") in the family was a little apprehensive going in???  Who knew??  After he realized his best bud and a few others he already knew were in his class, he lightened up and all is well on the homefront now.  :0)  The oldest didn't say much (definitely not the talker of the family), but I know he is THRILLED his best friend is in his class too.  Time sure does fly by quickly!  No more babies...

All is well on this end of the spectrum.  I am feeling great and looking toward the light at the end of the tunnel with "intense" chemo!  YIIPPEEE  only 4 left.  (3 after next week---gotta love THAT) 

Hope everyone enjoys their last weekend of "freedom" before school starts. Like the title states .... for me it's bittersweet.  ((Looking forward to some cooler weather of fall!! ))

Happy Friday, peeps!!

Blessings

E

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Want to wish all the teachers a GREAT and INSPIRING first day backto school today!  I sure do miss yall and I can't wait to see yall soon! 

I went to my classroom yesterday to "check it out" and I was overcome with emotion!  I work with the BEST team!  They have COMPLETELY organized and "put together" my classroom for me!  All my sweet assistant will need to do is some last minute finishes (names on desks and such) and voila!  Ready for students!  I owe these ladies BIG!   THANK YOU from the very bottom of my heart!! 

Off today for a check up at the neurologist then to the clinic for my infusion of antibodies.  Busy, busy day ahead for me!  lol 

Praying for teachers and soon to be students!  Hope yall have a FANTASTIC Monday!!! 

Blessings!!

E

Sunday, July 29, 2012


Where, oh, where has our summer gone?! 

I mean, REALLY???  This summer (despite all that has gone on) has FLOWN BY to me!  I guess the ole sayin' about time picking up speed with age is true....we will all be Christmas shopping and decorating before too long!  YIPPEE!!! 

Enjoying some family time before school cranks up and we get back in the swing of things.  Sure missing our lake time this year....oh well, something to look forward to next summer, right?? 


Blessings!

E

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Offically halfway there ladies and gents!  Can I get a WHOOOO WHOOOO!!??!?  Day and night 2 of hospital.  Usually stay 3 nights and head home on Thursdays.  So far this go 'round has been pretty decent.  I haven't had side effects like I did last time.  The nausea was THE. WORST. last go round!  This time has been kinda like my first round.... God is good, people! 

School starts back next week for teachers and sadly, I will not be joining the offical back to school day.  I should return at the end of September, beginning October.  Gotta put my health first and foremost but MAN!  I suuuure am gonna miss everyone!  Summers are always great but I am always ready to start school in August too.  Love what I do!  ;0)

Tomorrow is Wednesday.  Hope everyone has a wonderful one!  Hey!  You workers are halfway through your work week!  See?!?  A positive in every day, folks!  Gotta run....

Blessings!

E

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Today I am missing just hanging out, laughing, talking, and visiting with girlfriends/friends.  I think many are afraid to call or stop by because they think I am resting or not feeling well.  I am feeling GREAT!  I know I am battling cancer, but I PROMISE I feel like the ole Em everyone knows (and yall know I will tell you if it's a "good" day or not to visit).  I just can't soak up the sun, lay around the pool, run a couple of miles, or have a shopping marathon.  Many have called the hubs and inquired about me.  PLEASE don't be afraid to call me or text me!  ;0)  If I don't feel like talking, I won't answer and will call back later.  ;0)  I hope my "teacher friends" will remember me if they go eat lunch or dinner for back to school!  I miss yall! ((think I need a change of scenery?  We typically take a couple of road trips during the summer... not this year!  GRRRRR))

Went to see Ice Age with the youngest today.  We laughed and laughed!  "Granny" is the BEST character!  Cute, CUTE show!  I want to see the Amazing Spiderman.  I typically don't like a "super-hero" kind of show  but THIS one looks pretty cool. (Plus, I love Emma Stone!  She was GREAT in The Help)  Any reviews on Spiderman?? 

Anyway---hope yall are enjoying your weekend!  Round 4 on Monday! 

Blessings!

E

Friday, July 20, 2012

What to do...what to doooo....

Let's face it....it's that time of summer when you know the end is quickly approaching and we're all a little "bummed".  Typically I am working in my classroom at this point, obsessing about things that really don't matter in the end, BUT....here I am and I haven't TOUCHED the FIRST thing in my classroom!  A.MAZING.  LOL

Today I went to the school to "scope out the situation" and I must say to the sweet ladies that packed my room up :   WELL DONE!!!  CAN I HIRE YOU FOR THE END OF THIS COMING YEAR?!?!?  WWOOOOOWWW!!!  I called one of my fellow teachers and told her yall definitely deserve a HUGE pat on the back.  I honestly don't know how I am going to repay yall!  Now.....I just have to get in there and unpack and set up the room.  :0)  Thank you ladies!!!  You're amazing!!!  I love yall!!

Today has been another great day!  Feeling great and energy level is up.  Ran a few errands today.  (Got me the COOLEST pair of tennis shoes today.  NEON pink!  ***swoon***)  The bambinos were in tow as well.  They actually let me "shop" without complaining!  WOOOHOOO!!  Score one for MOM!  :0) 

Monday starts round 4 for chemo.  Halfway there!  (really and truly this time)

Blessings to all!!



Thursday, July 19, 2012

Today's Rambling

Nothing new going on my way.  I feel really good, energy level is up, but I AM getting a little cabin fever.  The summer is quickly coming to an end and with school around the corner, I am ready to get into my classroom and "put it together".... only....not this year.  I can't just go in and "dig in".  I am going to have to rely on someone else to move the heavy stuff and THAT, my friends, is a little frustrating.  I am such an independent person.  I also know that it will take a couple of turns and set ups for me to "like" the way my classroom is set up.  (All of my "teacher" friends will understand what I am talking about.  Yes, room set up is VEERY important to us!  ;o)  )

I had the antibody treatment yesterday and tolerated it excellent!  No reaction this time!  YIIPPEEE!!  I also had an MRI done and it looked great!  YAAY!  God is good, people!! 

Head back for round #4 on Monday.  This puts me at the halfway point of chemo at this time.  Yay!  Chemo STINKS!  But God has been so good to me.  Once I am home from the hospital, I feel as much like myself as I can at this point in the game.  My children and family see me up, talking and laughing, and THAT is important! 

Hope yall have a great day! Weekend is around the corner!!

Blessings!

E

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Nothing new, really.....

Nothing new to talk/blog about these days.  I feel pretty good.  Energy level is typical ... nothing too exciting.  Watched the youngest play his first World Series game today.  (We lost miserably, but I am so thankful I was there to see him!)  I am O.VER the t.v.  NOTHING good to watch! Any suggestions on some good red box movies would be greatly appreciated--just keep in mind I do NOT watch horror.  :0) 

Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend!  Won't be too much longer until school cranks back up.  Sheesh!  Time has flown--despite the circumstances! 

Blessings!!

E

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Ants in his pants..

Anyone that knows my husband knows that he is slightly (and that's putting it lightly) ADHD!  Today, the sweet man has ants in his pants!  The doctor came around yesterday morning and said my levels were looking pretty good and he was expecting me to go home Thursday (today).  Well....good ole "Pete" has been banking on that since 8:00 yesterday morning.  Needless to say, hubs has paced, texted, emailed and whatever he can do to pass the time, but  he is SOOOO RESTLESS!! 

Anyway---just wanted to touch base with yall.  Nurse just called and said they were going to discharge me today.  YIIPPPPEEEEE!!  So I am headed home ASAP! 

Hope yall have a great day!  Mine has just been made!!!

Blessings!!
E

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Today is a new day!

I had a chemo treatment yesterday.  Actually, they started it at 10:30 Monday night which ran until 2:30 Tuesday morning.  Ick, is all I have to say.  There is nothing more miserable than waking up to that "chemo" sickness.  Anyone that is reading this and has had cancer with chemo treatments  knows what I am talking about.  Nausea is OFF. THE. CHARTS.  and you simply feel CRUMMY!  Right before I started chemo my daddy (who is a stage 4 bladder cancer survivor of 6 years!  whoop whoop!) said to me "Em, there will be days that you simply DO. NOT. CARE. ABOUT. ANYTHING!  I MEAN:  NOTHING!   And that's okay because those days will pass."  Boy, was he soooo right! "Chemo" days, this ole gal doesn't care about ANYthing!  It's all I can do to carry on a conversation.  I told my husband that I am soooo not used to this "sick" feeling.  I can count on ONE hand how many times I have actually been SICK in my lifetime---praise the Lord!!  BUT!!! 
TODAY IS A NEW DAY!!! 

I woke up feeling refreshed.  I slept 6 hours last night (which is truly something in the hospital as the nurses must come in every hour to check my vitals, give me meds, etc..., etc...)  :0)  Nausea is near to none and I have some energy!  Thanking the good Lord for answering our prayers. 

I hope everyone is enjoying the "break" from the CUH-RAZY heat we've had lately!  I'm hoping I MIGHT get to go home tomorrow and enjoy some of it. 


3 down, 5 to go!!


Blessings!!!


E

Monday, July 9, 2012

My HUUUGE Mistake

Soooo.....I was COMPLETELY wrong about the "rounds" of chemo I will be taking.  APPARENTLY yours truly will be taking not 4 rounds, but 8 rounds which takes me through the middle of September.  I was having the best day today!  I haven't been anxious, nervous, etc, etc...all of those "good" ole feelings one tends to get when they're back for  more chemo, until BAM!  The doctor walks in.  And somehow he mentioned the "8 rounds" and I was like...."Whoa!  Wait.....4 rounds, right?"  Again, (this poor man probably thinks I am a complete LUNATIC) he had to go through the whole rick-a-ma-row of "my" chemo. ( as a side note---I reallly DO love my oncologist and think he is great, but sometimes I don't understand the "big" vocabulary)

Soooo....almost halfway there,  almost there, almost there, almost there....instead of mile 11 I am now back at mile 10 thinking, WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTO!?!?  BUT!  I know that God will renew my strength each and every time and that He never leaves me nor forsakes me.  He knows my heart is absolutely breaking but I know He  is going to carry me through this event. 

So, again...I ADMIT I WAS WRONG AND COMPLETELY MISUNDERSTOOD! (In all reality, it ROCKS. MY. WORLD. to have to go to the cancer clinic.  Once I am there, I think I kind of "zone out".  It's not intentional.  I just try not to "think" so much when I am there. GET IN. GET OUT.  Those are my thoughts)

Blessings and keep the prayers-a-coming!!

E

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Today is another fantastic day!  I am a little "stiff" from all of the "work" I did yesterday (which DRIVES ME UP. THE. WALL!!!)  I am a pretty active person who apparently has taken a lot for granted in the whole body department. 

Yesterday I woke up fairly early, so by 7:30 a.m. I was ready to do SOOOMETHING/ANYTHING!  You know that feeling??  I think it's called CABIN FEVER!!  ;0)  I had mentioned that I wanted to clean out my clothes/closet so the hubs says:  "I'll help you.  Let's start now!"  I JUMPED at the chance/opportunity for the help and activity!  Needless to say, it. is. SHAMEFUL. at the amount of clothes I have....uh....HAD! All that work though, I didn't think I would be SORE!  I guess 7-8 weeks of resting and lying around, the body isn't used to moving and grooving!  I was careful, but MAN I was sore and stiff by the time I was ready for bed.  Like I said, apparently, I didn't realize just how "active" my lifestyle really is??  

Anyway--energy level is average today.  Nothing too exciting but I think it's due yesterday's "high".  

Gearing up for round 3 tomorrow.  Actually....trying not to think about it.  I HATE being POKED WITH SHARP OBJECTS!!  I may miss my "new BFF", Ann, but I must say that the whole getting "plugged" in for chemo, I Will NOT!  YUCK!  Almost there, almost there, almost there....  (as my sweet friend Renee, a fellow runner, says:  WE CAN SEE THE FINISH LINE!!  YES!!  WAAAATTERRRR!!  WATER! WATER! WAAAATTTER!  Maybe by October I will be up and running ???  One can hope, right!?!?

Hope yall enjoyed a great weekend!  The rain was a nice break from the miserable heat, eh??  

Blessings to yall!!

E

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Another great day, people!  I have TONS of energy and I feel really good!  So thankful for a good day.  I have actually been working on organizing and cleaning out my closet (going through TOOOOOOO MANY CLOTHES!!  It's quite sinful and shameful!)  Had to stop for a break, so I decided to fill you in....aren't ya glad?  ;0)

Enough with this 100plus heat already!  Sheesh!  It's so miserable!  Because I have spent my summer indoors I absolutely canNOT stand to walk outside lately!  It's hard to believe that typically I spend every weekend on a ball field in this HEAT!!!   AND RUN I N IT!!  (Ready to get back into the swing of things!)  WOW!

It was 7 weeks yesterday I had my surgery and I as of this Monday I will be at the halfway point with chemo.  YAY!  Won't be long until I (we) start school.  I am expecting to return to school/work along with many other friends and teachers in August.  I am not expecting to miss much school.  If my doctor keeps me on this 2-week schedule my last chemo will land on the week of July 23.  That should give me about 2 weeks to "recoop" and be ready to go!  

Praising the Lord for another great day! 

Blessings to yall!!

E

Friday, July 6, 2012

It was an EXPERIENCE, that's for sure!

Well, went to clinic today for a 4-6 hour infusion of antibody.  Needless to say,  the minute it hit my system, I was a-running to the restroom.  Once I got back to  my seat, called nurse over, she shut it off immediately and gave me some anti=nausea meds and some benadryl.  WHEW!  THAT WAS MUUUUCH BETTER! 
We got started at 10 and I walked out at 3.  Hoping next time, doctors and nurses will know what I can handle and maybe get the anti-nausea med started sooner??  Not to mention I will know when to call the nurse and what to "look" for as far as that "not so good, I don't feel like myself" feeling...first time..... definitely an experience.  Ugh....

Monday will start round 3 of chemo.  Almost there, almost there, almost there....

FRIDAY TODAY!!  I know all of you non-teachers are thrilled for the break.  Hope yall have a fantabulous weekend!! 

Blessings!! 

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Bright Eyes

Well, the hubs has certainly made my day.  He came in for lunch from work.  As we were talking, he interrupted me to say:  "You look REALLY good today!"  I replied "thank you", he said :"  No, like .... REEALLLY  GOOD!  You have your bright eyes back today!"  --- with stuff coming at me like that, makes me want to push even harder!  I knew I got up feeling really good again today.  This has been a good week.  I texted my BFF and told her I think my "hump" from surgery is over.  My energy level is returning and I have slight cabin fever...MUST BE RECOVERING TO THE GOOD OLE EM!!  WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!! 

It will be 7 weeks on Friday since my surgery.  Gearing up for round #3 on Monday! 

Prayers!!!

E

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

2nd post of the day...yeah, yeah, yeah.....

I know, I know....two posts in one day....all I can say is:  I am a slightly bored!  Today has been a really great day in the energy, feeling good department!  I just wished I was able to do the normal things I like to do in the summer, like LAYOUT BY THE POOL!!!  LOL 

I've thought a lot today about my situation and how quickly it all happened AND how quickly the treatments have gone by (THANK. THE. LORD!)  as I gear up for round #3 on Monday I am thankful that this is almost over, I am MOST thankful for what God has done for me.  I have talked to many people lately who are in the hospital for one reason or another or have dealing with some kind of sickness or just going through a hard time.  Wherever you are, whomever you are reading this, I want you to know:   His word tells us He never leaves us, nor forsakes us---even through all of the chaos I have been through in the last 6-8 weeks, I have had such a peace.  A peace that ONLY the Lord can give.   I have so much to be thankful for the blessings He has bestowed upon my family and me.  Has this been easy?  No.  Do I know it's going to be okay?  Absolutely!  He told me from the beginning I was and I have truly held on to that !!


 Thank you for your encouragement, prayers, calls, and texts.  Please continue to lift me up as I wage this war.  If my doctor keeps me on this 2-week schedule of chemo, looks like I should be hitting round 4 the week of July 23rd!  WHEW!  (almost there, almost there, almost there.....)  I am ready to be finished with the whole chemo thing. 

Hope everyone enjoyed a safe and happy 4th of July!  Until next time:  blessings to everyone!!!

E

Happy 4th of July!

Okay....soooo....I MISS MY FRIENDS!!  We always get together to watch the fireworks at our house, grill out, kids run around, swim, dance, whatever....not. this. year.  UGH!!!  They're all at the BEACH!!  GRRRRRR   ha ha  I MISS YAAAALLLL!!!!

I really haven't thought much about the 4th as far as the "celebration".  I haven't really cared about doing much, hanging out, going anywhere, etc....But TODAY.....TODAY IS A GREAT DAY!!!  I woke up feeling reeeeeeealllllygood!  :0)  The hubs took the oldest to play golf.  The youngest and I are just sitting around.  I would actually like to "organize" something....do any of yall do that ?!  Typically,  summer is my time to "declutter" and catch up on what I have neglected from August - May.  I had big plans to declutter and organize our attic this summer....hmm....too hot for me to do THAT though.....what to do, what to dooooo!! 

Anyway...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMERICA!  We truly are blessed to live in this land!  I hope everyone has a great day and remember to BE SAFE!!!

BLESSINGS TO ALL!!

E

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

God Showed Up Again!

So today, I was scheduled (or so I thought) to have a 4-6 hour infusion at the cancer clinic for some type of antibody that's supposed to "work well with your chemo"....well....I have "kind of" shared with a few friends and family members just how anxious I become when I        A.  go to the clinic        and      B. have to get STUCK!  EEEKKK!  (Never realized I was SUCH. A. BABY!!!???)  Anyway...doctor evidentally had not put the order through to the treatment center as he wanted to "lay eyes on ya and talk to see how you were and have really been feeling"....YAY!!  SOOOO,......home again, home again....noooo treatment today!!  I head back to clinic on Friday for the infusion.  Prayers!  Oh yeah, I feel fine these days.  Thanking the good Lord for this!  All of my "numbers" look great too.  Again:  All praise goes to the Great Physician!! 

Today is another good day.   I don't know about yall, but ...MAN!!!  THIS HEAT IS AWWWFUL!!  I mean....SEEEERIOUSLY!!!!  Bet we won't be going to outside recess until October with this heat the way it is, doesn't seem to be slacking or going to slack any time soon. 

Well, hope everyone has a FANTASTIC 4th of July!  Guess we'll be watching the fireworks in the front yard!  ((the youngest can't WAIT!  LOL ))

God bless you guys!!

E

Sunday, July 1, 2012

I'm amazed that you're amazed...haha

It's funny to me....this whole situation...in a way, I guess..  Yes, I am "sick", yes, I have had brain surgery, yes, I am in the throws of chemo (which STINKS, by the way), but it tickles me whenever I see people.  The statement seems to be : "Woow!  You look GREAT!" I am amazed that YOU are amazed?!  I guess because I am ever expecting the best of this situation and reality is most people see/think/feel the worst?  Please do NOT take this personally...I just want people to know that truly, TRULY I believe God has me in the very PALMS OF HIS HANDS and good WILL prevail from all of this!  It is up to me to make the most of what I've been given and how I move forward.   Also---as a side note---I will be returning to work in August.  I think there are some rumors flying around that I won't....to the best of my ability, I will be there.  I might not have the "umph!"  I usually have at the beginning, but rest assured...I KNOW it will return! 

Anywho...another good day!  Thanks for all of the prayers!  Please keep 'em a rolling! 

Blessings to all!!! 

E
Well....home again, home again, jiggity-jig!  WHEW!  LOOONG WEEK!!  I don't know WHAT I was thinking!  I guess I was hoping for the best of getting out of the hospital sooner than expected.  Fact is:  I am taking STRONG. CHEMO. and need to be watched closely.  I guess I just thought: "numbers look good, I'm going home!".  Oh well...I would MUCH  rather be safe, right?? 

Needless to say, I have had 3-4 "good" days.  I have felt like myself for the most part:  no nausea, achy, fever...PRAISE THE LORD!  And I say Praise the Lord in the most sincere way!  He is my Provider and my Healer.  Keep the prayers -a - comin' please! 

I can't BElieeeeeve July is upon us!!!  WOW!!  Seriously....summer is FLYING. BY!  I don't know about your kiddos, but mine seem to always be on the move!  I am thankful for great friends and family that have helped with them.  I really don't know how I am going to repay everyone! 

Well, Happy Sunday, Peeps! 

Blessings!!
E

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Truth....

Truth is:  this 2nd go round hasn't been as easy as the first.  Ugh....a couple of side effects crept up this time.  I won't go into detail but please know that they aren't anything too terrible, simply uncomfortable for me and I sooo wanted to go through this without any! 

Sleep was near to none last night which caused a long day.  Please pray that round 3 goes smoothly and I won't have any side effects of any kind.  Round 3....allllmooooossst to round 444444!!!!  YAY!  STILL STAYING POSITIVE AND BELIEVING AND RECEIVING MY HEALING!! 

The hubs has been super sweet.  I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.  He takes really good care of me.  He's just a natural caregiver. My mom says all the time that he babies me unlike anything she's ever seen!  HA!!  I tell her all of those prayers paid off!!!  ;0)   I truly believe his caregiving is a gift from God.  He takes initative and makes sure these nurses are on top of things....(poor things  haha  I'm sure there's a lot of eye rolling--I mean, if I am doing it, surely they are !  LOL  The man means well though.  Gotta love him for that!!!  )

Well, just wanted to check in.  A decent day, not as great as the first go, but anticipating tomorrow to be great!

Blessings!!! 

E

Sunday, June 24, 2012

2 nd Round!

Tomorrow I am scheduled for round 2 of 4 rounds of chemo in the hospital.  Please be praying that I do not have any side effects from the chemo and that I respond well to the chemo.  First time went well until I got home, then WHAM! 

This time next week I will be HALF WAY FINISHED WITH CHEMO!!!  WHOOOOHOOOOO

BEFORE LONG TEACHERS, WE WILL BE GETTING OUR CLASSROOMS READY FOR THE "NEW" YEAR!.  Yes, I went there.....oh the nerve!  HAHA

I hope everyone is enjoying their summer.  It's really going by super fast, considering....

Have a great week, yall!!!!

Blessings!!!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Today is another BEAUTIFUL DAY!

Today is another good day, peeps!  YAY!  So many people have sent me texts and emails checking on me, asking me how I am feeling.  The answer is :   I REEEALLLY feel "normal"  (HAAA...I know, I know, we'll leave THAT one alone).  But I do.  I feel good.  I just hate that it's soooo hot outside because normally, I have a savage tan at this point in the summer and....welll......I am SOOO WHITe!!  LOL  But the hubs says to leave it alone, it's healthier....humph....next summer!!!!  NEEEEXT SUMMER!!!  ((Still shootin for that pool in my backyard.  You'd think BRAIN SURGERY would land ya somethin' good!  hee heeee))

Anywho--went to the bambino's game last night. I'm gonna go out on a limb and say:  baseball fields  watching my child are probably not the healthiest place for me to "recover".  I am a natually competetive person anyway.....and......well.....just to be honest.......when my children are playing, I want TOOO WWWIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! HAHA....but seriously....I am not supposed to "get excited" (yell, holler, scream)-----uhHHHHHHH PEOPLE.   DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THAT IS WHEN YOUR CHILD'S TEAM IS BEHIND!!!???!?!?  LOL
Seriously, it was tough being a "quiet" fan on the sidelines.  I'm sure the hubs loved it.  :0)  NOOO, I am not the crazy mama that climbs the fence and yells at the team, BUT I expect the team to "bring it" ANY time they are on the field!  It's not anything I would expect out of any situation in life....    :0) 

Anyway----praying for another great day tomorrow.  Please keep me in your prayers as I return for ROUND #2 Monday!!!    All seemed to go well last time,  expecting the same this go round. Hey---and guess what!?!?  I will be HALF WAY TO THE FINISH LINE THIS TIME NEXT WEEEEEEK!!!  YAAAAAAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


BLESSINGS!!!

Friday, June 22, 2012

Questions People Want Answered

"Are you going to lose your hair?"  "Think your hair will fall out?" 

These are two questions that my friends keep asking.  My answer for them:  I shrug my shoulders and say: "No..  I am the exception to the rule.  Haven't you figured that out yet?!" 

In all seriousness:  hair loss is a common side efffect of the chemo I am taking. Have I noticed any changes yet?  Nope.  Not anything other than where the neurologists cut a little for the surgery back in May.  Soooo....who knows if I will lose my hair. 

In my twisted way of thinking I have enjoyed looking at the wig catalog the nurse gave me for suggestions.  How FUN might it be to wear a different color and style every day!?!  Yall know that I LOOOOOOOVE red hair and have tried to achieve this look for some time.  You never know what you might see ole Em heading into work/town/fun/ with!  HAHA  Ultimately, I do not know if I will lose my hair.  Do I worry about it ?  Nope.  I can't.  More important stuff to fret over.  Now....if these CHIPMUNK CHEEKS swelling would go away completely....I would be a happy camper!  Hair or no hair....ugh. ( We don't know WHAT that is from, other than the surgery???  And possibly the medication that I was taking at the time, but not any more????  WHO. KNOWS!!! )

Anyway....I was up and about and "thinking" so I thought I'd "share" my thoughts. 
Blessings to EVERYONE!    MUUUUAH! 

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Just BLESSED!

Yesterday's MRI results were good.  Doc said "all is healing beautifully!  I don't see any unnatual swelling, place where mass was is healing as it should.  All looks good!"

God is good, yall!  I'm just blessed.  Period!!!  I feel His presence and love with me all the time. 

Monday will be round 2 of chemo.   Doctor is adament I only stay one night (I'm speculating that he wasn't too thrille I stayed all week last time.  He said :  "there's just no need for that!")  You aren't telling ME anything I don't know!  HA!!  A week  was tough!! There's just nothing better than your own bed, your own shower, your own smells,and of course.....not having someone POKING or PRODDINg on you AAALLL hours of the NIGHT!?!?  LOL

Anyway---I slept SSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo gooooooood last night, people!!!  I don't think I MOVED at. all! Didn't get up until after 9.  Yes, God. Is. Good!!!

BLESSINGS TO YALL!!! 

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Typically....

HA!  Well...it's 4:50 a.m. and TYPICALLY I would be gearing up to train...yeah....welllll.....diffferent training now, eh?

As I sit here, feeling kinda icky (sorry, just being honest)  and going through all the texts (sorryguys, I PROMISE I will get with yall soon...just been kinda "busy") I thought I'd fill yall in on the latest with me....

Well......came home Friday from the hospital.  Felt pretty good!  No real pains.  No nausea.
  Not really feeling any differently than I have, other than my HEAD WAS FEELING GOOOOOD!!!  :0) 

Then Saturday came.....

Okay....sooooo....the precious nurse , Ann, who is my new best friend--she just doesn't realize it yet--said "OkAY, SOOOOO,,,,,Saturday and Sunday are "probably gonna kick your butt"....seriously.....those were her words.  She then went on to explain that the chemo would ZAP me of my energy and it would be OOOOKKKAAAAYYY.  She said "REEEEST"....HA!  I think I COMPLETELY zoned out during that conversation, because I thought initially:  "yeah...okay...kinda like every other day I have been having.  I've got this.  This stupid mess isn't gonna lick ME!"....uuuuhhhhh......hhhhhmmmm........

I.  DID. NOT . GET. OUT .OF . THE. BED. ON. SATUDAY!!!  I WAS NOT ONLY WIPED OUT, BUT COULD NOT, DID NOT, WOULD NOT MOOOOVE!!!  OH MY GOODNESS!!!  Seriously....I had no idea it was going to be that bad!!!  I might be dreading August.....

Sunday was a pretty good day to start off with.   I tried to go to church, but ran out of juice,so hubs and boys went.  Sunday was pretty uneventful, but ....Monday....

MONDAY, MONDAY:  WHAT A FUN DAY!!!

WWWOOOWWW!!!  Okay:  spiked a temp which kinda freaked the hubs out, as we were told "ER anything over 99."  Oh well, yall know ME by NOW:  if I am gonna do it, LET'S DO IT RIGHT!!!    Fever spiked 100,8  (eeeeeks)

Thank goodness for a GREAT hubs.  He called the doc, got me in, and all is well.  lol

Doctor can't figure out WHAT or WHY I am/was running fever.  My white blood cell counts are "great", sooo......It's 5 A. M., fever is slightly up again and.........that's the latest run down! 


I want to tell everyone thaank you again for calling and texting and emailing me.  I promise I will catch up eventually.  As you can see....been a little under the weather BUT I will kick it and get back soon!  I love yall and  CAN YOU BELIEVE IT IS ALREADY JUNE 20TH!?!?!?!?!  SHEESH....
Last I knew it was May 18th!  lol

Blessings to everyone! 




Sunday, June 17, 2012

YES!!!

Well.....it's that time again for me:    St. Jude marathon registration time!  Do I??  DON"T I??  What to do...what to do....DUH, PEOPLE!!!  I'M CROSSING THAT FINISH LINE AND GOING TO SHOUT HALLELUIAH!!!  Now....who's going to join me this year?  Obviously, I won't be running the 26 or 13, but 5k is going to be an accomplishment and probably QUITE emotional, too.  I can't WAIT!!!  ((Maybe I can FINALLY talk the hubs into joining me???  We'll seeeee.....))  If you haven't ever experienced the St. Jude Marathon weekend in Memphis...let me tell you....you are MISSING A TREAT!!!  IT'S AAAAMMMAAZING!!!  I  have fun it for 6-7 years and it's without a doubt, one of my favorite things to do.  I encourage you to come out this year and give a shout for all those sweet   babies fighting for their lives and all of the hunnnnndreds of volunteers giving their time to support them.  I promise you, you won't be disappointed!!! 

Well, off to scout it out.....and FYI:  I have a team.  Last year we ran for His Grace Girls.  (I'm quite emotional right now at the thought of joining these two precious little girls as a GRACE SURVIVOR!!!  ))

More info to come!!! 

Blessings!!!! 

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Well, today, I am just going to have to be honest: this is kickin' my tail today.  I have ABSOLUTELY NOOOO ENERGY!!!  I mean, I'm not talking "hmmm....I just wanna lay around today"  I mean ""  HOLY MOLY that shower WORE. ME. OUT!!!".  YUUUCK!!!  I have always heard that chemo/cancer/sickness made you tired, but I had NO IDEA that I would have trouble STAYING AWAKE?!?!??  YUCK!!!  I hate this and I hate that my family is seeing me this way.  I don't want them to think I am slacking, but sheesh!  I just need to SLEEEEP!!!  HAHA

We got home last night from the hospital about 7 ish.  Let me tell you what:  I LOVE my bed!!!  I slept until 9:30 this morning....it was HEAVEN!!!  WITHOUT ANY INTERRUPTIONS!!!!   I told Jason, even though it looks like I am "sleeping" in the hospital, I never sleep.  I am constantly aware of my surroundings which is probably another reason why I am BEAT today!  Things are just catching up??? 

Anyway---home sweet home with my precious children.  So thankful!!! 
Hope everyone is enjoying their summer...can you BELIEVE IT!?!?:

Blessings!!!

Em

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Round 1 Chemo

Well....day 3 of the hospital, round 1 of  chemo and all seems to be going great!  The nurse came rushing in this morning proclaiming:  "WOW!!  You must have kidneys of a teenager!"  I said :"  Is this a good thing?"  She says:  "OH YEAH!!!  Honey!!  We checked your levels YESTERDAY and they are reading what the average person's reads on day 2 after chemo!!  You're moving on OUT!"  Me:  "It's just God taking care of me".  SERIOUSLY, PEOPLE!!!  DON'T YOU SEE??  HE'S GOT ME IN HIS HANDS!!! 

I hope to get to go home tomorrow.  We're a little bored, to say the least.  Television is AWFUL these days!!  I am amazed at the TRASH that's out there!  ICK...and there's just so much pacing one can do....

Otherwise, I feel really good.  I have AN AMMMMAAAZING NURSE!!!  She is AWESOME!!  She is taking great care of me and keeping on TOP of my meds so I don't get sick--which I have not and am not anticipating. 

I had another spinal tap on Tuesday and the results were good that came back from it.  ((Again, the good Lord took care of me--I didn't feel anything and had no discomfort afterwards, unlike before.)) 

Thanks for all who are continuing to call and check on us.  We are doing well!!  Just ready to go home!  ;0) 

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Tomorrow...

Well, tomorrow I head to the hospital for round 1 of chemo.  Am I scared?  No--I am not.  Do I dread it?  Well....maybe a little, in the sense of:  I would rather be at home with my babies.  But I will not worry about tomorrow, just going to trust in the Lord and know that He is in control. 

Today I have been overwhelmed with love.  My family and I have been touched by so many of you reaching out.  Again, God has opened MY eyes as to how we EACH come into contact with SOOO MANY people!  People from all walks of life, in every aspect of our lives.  I have really taken that for granted and I hope not to again.  We are here to love each other, build each other up, encourage each other, help each other all for HIS GLORY.  I have failed miserably in this department, unfortunatley.  Today is a new day though!  Thankful for an opportunity to correct...

Thanks to all of you who call, text, email, come see me, pray....we are so very thankful from the bottom of our hearts.  Even the boys get excited about "who's bringing dinner!"--spoken like true boys, eh??  LOVE! 

Praying that round 1 goes smoothly and my body reacts quickly!!  Praying also for Divine Intervention!  (I think we're already seeing this though, don't you?  HAAAA))

Friday, June 8, 2012

I was in a local Christian book store the other day and a sticker caught my eye.  It was a picture of a half eaten apple with the statement:  Not our finest moment.

 HOLY COW!!!  THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN THINKING LATELY, LORD!!!  When I tell people about what's going on with me, I hesitate to tell them everything.  Initially, I  thought I was an open book....not so much these days.  I am holding on to what the Lord placed in my heart in the hospital:  "Do not receive this news"  Now, I know many of you are thinking that I am NUTS not to ask all "the questions";  what is the protocol?  what is the next step?  what stage?.... I'm not because I truly believe God is in control of all of this and He is asking me to TRUST. HIM.  Many of you know or may "not" know, but the pathology report came back and said it is more than a mass.  The doctors are hesitating to call it "cancer" because of the type it is.  Nothing is adding up. (HA!  GOD IS IN CONTROL!)  One of the doctors said to my husband:  "We're just stumped!  NOTHING is reading like a textbook case on her!" in which my sweet, loving husband replies:  "OHHH....I could've TOLD yall THAT!"  (Love in its finest degree!  ;0))   Love that man! 

Trusting

Anyway--just some more thoughts that I wanted to share. Yes, we have this technology and all its "resources" but sometimes, it's REALLY NOT THAT GOOD TO DELVE OFF INTO THE FRUIT OF KNOWLEDGE!!!  JUST. TRUST!!!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

AAHH HAAAAA!!!!

GOD. IS.SOOOOOO GOOD AND FAITHFUL!!! 

Ephesians 6: 12 states:  For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 

THIS is what was placed in my heart from the VERY beginning of this "ordeal".  I have said it before and I will continue to say and believe God has healed me and will use this for His good!  This battle that wages inside of me is not flesh and blood, it's spiritual.  Evil forces are everywhere but I know that I KNOW God is surrounding me and His protection is ever present. 


This morning we received a call from the oncologist's nurse.  :  She said: "Hey guys!  The results are back from the bone marrow and we can't find ANYthing ANYwhere!  We ran ALL KINDS of tests and NOTHING is showing up!"   AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAH


I KNEW IT!!!  GOD IS SOOOO GOOD!!  Many of you reading this will think:  yeah, but...  just STOP.  RIGHT.  THERE!!  I told yall it was going to be okay!  I am thankful for my doctors and will continue to pray for them, but no....they won't be able to "figure me out" because this battle is not flesh and blood.  I LOOOVE HOW GOD IS SHOWING UP!!!  THIS. IS. AWESOME!!  WHAT A STORY TO SHARE!!! 

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Talk and Thoughts


Two POWERFUL words :   TALK AND THOUGHTS

After surgery, many people were wanting the details of my situation.  "Was there a mass in her head?  Is it cancer?  Will she be the "same"?"....many, many questions.  Questions that I am going to be honest, I was not ready to discuss with myself, let alone, anyone else.  (no offense...)  Again, if I am being honest:   I KNOW that I am healed.  Yall...I FEEL it in my VERY INMOST of my being!  I mean:  I FEEEEL MY HEALING!  I know that this is the Lord.  I have never, EVER felt such a PEACE like I have right now.  I do not know what tomorrow holds for me, but I know Who holds my tomorrow. 

There is a song by Third Day that has been on my heart and mind :  It's Allright.  If you've never heard it, google it or look it up.  GREAT message!  Top of my Lungs is another song that resignates what's in my heart these days.  My healing and health comes from the the Great Physician. 

Now:  the title:  Talk and Thoughts....

Do you KNOW how VERY POWERFUL our EVERYDAY words are, people?!  WHEW!  Language...words are windows to our hearts.  Think about that for a moment...the things we SAY are written on our hearts and plop out of our mouths.  YIIIKES!!!  Anyone that knows me, knows I LOOOVE to TALK!!!  About ANYthing...yikes, again!  I fully believe God is working in me about my speech with this very situation.  I do NOT want to hear or be around any negativitiy.  I am trusting that God is guiding my doctors in the way that we should go.  I know that many of you are wanting the details of the "protocol"...again:  I am asking you to trust the Lord with me on HIS DIVINE direction with my doctors. 

Sunday, June 3, 2012

ROCKED TO THE CORE

To "say" my life has been tuned UPSIDE, INSIDE out doesn't really do the words justice.  I have truly been ROCKED, SHAKEN, and TURNED INSIDE OUT to the very CORE OF MY BEING. 

God is so good, yall! 

The last 3 weeks have definitely been a whirlwind.  Headaches.  It's kinda crazy how my headaches (people:  not just "headaches"--I am talking:  sheer grinding, excruciating, wanting to HURT SOMETHING BECAUSE I AM IN CONSTANT PAIN headaches)  Obviously now looking back, I let them go way too long.  Being the ever-prideful, strong-woman (or so I thought)--I had the attitude of "I've got this...it'll go away"....humph....welp....6-8 weeks of agony and a brain surgery later...here. I . am!  :0)  THANK THE GOOD LORD I AM PAIN FREE!! 

If you are reading this, I want to say:  thank you!  So many people have reached out and loved up on our family in various ways and we are grateful.  The food, cards, calls, visits...the effort is truly appreciated on a level I cannot express with words. 

My healing is coming along BEEAUTIFULLY!!  :0)  I had the staples in my head removed last week (whhoop wooo)  Thanks to my friends that sent texts asking if I was "demagnetized"---uhhh.....DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE TALKING TO?  NO!  YOU KNOW I AM MAGNETIC, PEEPS!!!  MUAH!!!  --uhh...and since we're on the subject of staples:  STAPLES!!!  IN. MY. HEAD???  SEEERIOUSLY....cuh-RAZ-Y!!!  Again:  GOD. IS. GOOD!!  The staples will defintely bring laughter down the road with friends and family for years to come, I'm sure, and in some sick kind of way:  I LOVE IT!  I am just so thankful to be here and the opportunity to share...love life right now. 

Anyway--talk and thoughts.  These are the words that keep ringing in my head.  So much God has revealed to me on SUCH a REAL WAY.  I can't wait to share with you.  Soon. 

Until then--  LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH!!!  TRULY!! LIFE. IS. TOO. SHORT!!!