Questions People Want Answered

"Are you going to lose your hair?"  "Think your hair will fall out?" 

These are two questions that my friends keep asking.  My answer for them:  I shrug my shoulders and say: "No..  I am the exception to the rule.  Haven't you figured that out yet?!" 

In all seriousness:  hair loss is a common side efffect of the chemo I am taking. Have I noticed any changes yet?  Nope.  Not anything other than where the neurologists cut a little for the surgery back in May.  Soooo....who knows if I will lose my hair. 

In my twisted way of thinking I have enjoyed looking at the wig catalog the nurse gave me for suggestions.  How FUN might it be to wear a different color and style every day!?!  Yall know that I LOOOOOOOVE red hair and have tried to achieve this look for some time.  You never know what you might see ole Em heading into work/town/fun/ with!  HAHA  Ultimately, I do not know if I will lose my hair.  Do I worry about it ?  Nope.  I can't.  More important stuff to fret over.  Now....if these CHIPMUNK CHEEKS swelling would go away completely....I would be a happy camper!  Hair or no hair....ugh. ( We don't know WHAT that is from, other than the surgery???  And possibly the medication that I was taking at the time, but not any more????  WHO. KNOWS!!! )

Anyway....I was up and about and "thinking" so I thought I'd "share" my thoughts. 
Blessings to EVERYONE!    MUUUUAH! 

Just BLESSED!

Yesterday's MRI results were good.  Doc said "all is healing beautifully!  I don't see any unnatual swelling, place where mass was is healing as it should.  All looks good!"

God is good, yall!  I'm just blessed.  Period!!!  I feel His presence and love with me all the time. 

Monday will be round 2 of chemo.   Doctor is adament I only stay one night (I'm speculating that he wasn't too thrille I stayed all week last time.  He said :  "there's just no need for that!")  You aren't telling ME anything I don't know!  HA!!  A week  was tough!! There's just nothing better than your own bed, your own shower, your own smells,and of course.....not having someone POKING or PRODDINg on you AAALLL hours of the NIGHT!?!?  LOL

Anyway---I slept SSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo gooooooood last night, people!!!  I don't think I MOVED at. all! Didn't get up until after 9.  Yes, God. Is. Good!!!

BLESSINGS TO YALL!!! 

Typically....

HA!  Well...it's 4:50 a.m. and TYPICALLY I would be gearing up to train...yeah....welllll.....diffferent training now, eh?

As I sit here, feeling kinda icky (sorry, just being honest)  and going through all the texts (sorryguys, I PROMISE I will get with yall soon...just been kinda "busy") I thought I'd fill yall in on the latest with me....

Well......came home Friday from the hospital.  Felt pretty good!  No real pains.  No nausea.
  Not really feeling any differently than I have, other than my HEAD WAS FEELING GOOOOOD!!!  :0) 

Then Saturday came.....

Okay....sooooo....the precious nurse , Ann, who is my new best friend--she just doesn't realize it yet--said "OkAY, SOOOOO,,,,,Saturday and Sunday are "probably gonna kick your butt"....seriously.....those were her words.  She then went on to explain that the chemo would ZAP me of my energy and it would be OOOOKKKAAAAYYY.  She said "REEEEST"....HA!  I think I COMPLETELY zoned out during that conversation, because I thought initially:  "yeah...okay...kinda like every other day I have been having.  I've got this.  This stupid mess isn't gonna lick ME!"....uuuuhhhhh......hhhhhmmmm........

I.  DID. NOT . GET. OUT .OF . THE. BED. ON. SATUDAY!!!  I WAS NOT ONLY WIPED OUT, BUT COULD NOT, DID NOT, WOULD NOT MOOOOVE!!!  OH MY GOODNESS!!!  Seriously....I had no idea it was going to be that bad!!!  I might be dreading August.....

Sunday was a pretty good day to start off with.   I tried to go to church, but ran out of juice,so hubs and boys went.  Sunday was pretty uneventful, but ....Monday....

MONDAY, MONDAY:  WHAT A FUN DAY!!!

WWWOOOWWW!!!  Okay:  spiked a temp which kinda freaked the hubs out, as we were told "ER anything over 99."  Oh well, yall know ME by NOW:  if I am gonna do it, LET'S DO IT RIGHT!!!    Fever spiked 100,8  (eeeeeks)

Thank goodness for a GREAT hubs.  He called the doc, got me in, and all is well.  lol

Doctor can't figure out WHAT or WHY I am/was running fever.  My white blood cell counts are "great", sooo......It's 5 A. M., fever is slightly up again and.........that's the latest run down! 


I want to tell everyone thaank you again for calling and texting and emailing me.  I promise I will catch up eventually.  As you can see....been a little under the weather BUT I will kick it and get back soon!  I love yall and  CAN YOU BELIEVE IT IS ALREADY JUNE 20TH!?!?!?!?!  SHEESH....
Last I knew it was May 18th!  lol

Blessings to everyone! 

YES!!!

Well.....it's that time again for me:    St. Jude marathon registration time!  Do I??  DON"T I??  What to do...what to do....DUH, PEOPLE!!!  I'M CROSSING THAT FINISH LINE AND GOING TO SHOUT HALLELUIAH!!!  Now....who's going to join me this year?  Obviously, I won't be running the 26 or 13, but 5k is going to be an accomplishment and probably QUITE emotional, too.  I can't WAIT!!!  ((Maybe I can FINALLY talk the hubs into joining me???  We'll seeeee.....))  If you haven't ever experienced the St. Jude Marathon weekend in Memphis...let me tell you....you are MISSING A TREAT!!!  IT'S AAAAMMMAAZING!!!  I  have fun it for 6-7 years and it's without a doubt, one of my favorite things to do.  I encourage you to come out this year and give a shout for all those sweet   babies fighting for their lives and all of the hunnnnndreds of volunteers giving their time to support them.  I promise you, you won't be disappointed!!! 

Well, off to scout it out.....and FYI:  I have a team.  Last year we ran for His Grace Girls.  (I'm quite emotional right now at the thought of joining these two precious little girls as a GRACE SURVIVOR!!!  ))

More info to come!!! 

Blessings!!!! 

Well, today, I am just going to have to be honest: this is kickin' my tail today.  I have ABSOLUTELY NOOOO ENERGY!!!  I mean, I'm not talking "hmmm....I just wanna lay around today"  I mean ""  HOLY MOLY that shower WORE. ME. OUT!!!".  YUUUCK!!!  I have always heard that chemo/cancer/sickness made you tired, but I had NO IDEA that I would have trouble STAYING AWAKE?!?!??  YUCK!!!  I hate this and I hate that my family is seeing me this way.  I don't want them to think I am slacking, but sheesh!  I just need to SLEEEEP!!!  HAHA

We got home last night from the hospital about 7 ish.  Let me tell you what:  I LOVE my bed!!!  I slept until 9:30 this morning....it was HEAVEN!!!  WITHOUT ANY INTERRUPTIONS!!!!   I told Jason, even though it looks like I am "sleeping" in the hospital, I never sleep.  I am constantly aware of my surroundings which is probably another reason why I am BEAT today!  Things are just catching up??? 

Anyway---home sweet home with my precious children.  So thankful!!! 
Hope everyone is enjoying their summer...can you BELIEVE IT!?!?:

Blessings!!!

Em

Round 1 Chemo

Well....day 3 of the hospital, round 1 of  chemo and all seems to be going great!  The nurse came rushing in this morning proclaiming:  "WOW!!  You must have kidneys of a teenager!"  I said :"  Is this a good thing?"  She says:  "OH YEAH!!!  Honey!!  We checked your levels YESTERDAY and they are reading what the average person's reads on day 2 after chemo!!  You're moving on OUT!"  Me:  "It's just God taking care of me".  SERIOUSLY, PEOPLE!!!  DON'T YOU SEE??  HE'S GOT ME IN HIS HANDS!!! 

I hope to get to go home tomorrow.  We're a little bored, to say the least.  Television is AWFUL these days!!  I am amazed at the TRASH that's out there!  ICK...and there's just so much pacing one can do....

Otherwise, I feel really good.  I have AN AMMMMAAAZING NURSE!!!  She is AWESOME!!  She is taking great care of me and keeping on TOP of my meds so I don't get sick--which I have not and am not anticipating. 

I had another spinal tap on Tuesday and the results were good that came back from it.  ((Again, the good Lord took care of me--I didn't feel anything and had no discomfort afterwards, unlike before.)) 

Thanks for all who are continuing to call and check on us.  We are doing well!!  Just ready to go home!  ;0) 

Tomorrow...

Well, tomorrow I head to the hospital for round 1 of chemo.  Am I scared?  No--I am not.  Do I dread it?  Well....maybe a little, in the sense of:  I would rather be at home with my babies.  But I will not worry about tomorrow, just going to trust in the Lord and know that He is in control. 

Today I have been overwhelmed with love.  My family and I have been touched by so many of you reaching out.  Again, God has opened MY eyes as to how we EACH come into contact with SOOO MANY people!  People from all walks of life, in every aspect of our lives.  I have really taken that for granted and I hope not to again.  We are here to love each other, build each other up, encourage each other, help each other all for HIS GLORY.  I have failed miserably in this department, unfortunatley.  Today is a new day though!  Thankful for an opportunity to correct...

Thanks to all of you who call, text, email, come see me, pray....we are so very thankful from the bottom of our hearts.  Even the boys get excited about "who's bringing dinner!"--spoken like true boys, eh??  LOVE! 

Praying that round 1 goes smoothly and my body reacts quickly!!  Praying also for Divine Intervention!  (I think we're already seeing this though, don't you?  HAAAA))