I was in a local Christian book store the other day and a sticker caught my eye.  It was a picture of a half eaten apple with the statement:  Not our finest moment.

 HOLY COW!!!  THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN THINKING LATELY, LORD!!!  When I tell people about what's going on with me, I hesitate to tell them everything.  Initially, I  thought I was an open book....not so much these days.  I am holding on to what the Lord placed in my heart in the hospital:  "Do not receive this news"  Now, I know many of you are thinking that I am NUTS not to ask all "the questions";  what is the protocol?  what is the next step?  what stage?.... I'm not because I truly believe God is in control of all of this and He is asking me to TRUST. HIM.  Many of you know or may "not" know, but the pathology report came back and said it is more than a mass.  The doctors are hesitating to call it "cancer" because of the type it is.  Nothing is adding up. (HA!  GOD IS IN CONTROL!)  One of the doctors said to my husband:  "We're just stumped!  NOTHING is reading like a textbook case on her!" in which my sweet, loving husband replies:  "OHHH....I could've TOLD yall THAT!"  (Love in its finest degree!  ;0))   Love that man! 

Trusting

Anyway--just some more thoughts that I wanted to share. Yes, we have this technology and all its "resources" but sometimes, it's REALLY NOT THAT GOOD TO DELVE OFF INTO THE FRUIT OF KNOWLEDGE!!!  JUST. TRUST!!!

AAHH HAAAAA!!!!

GOD. IS.SOOOOOO GOOD AND FAITHFUL!!! 

Ephesians 6: 12 states:  For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 

THIS is what was placed in my heart from the VERY beginning of this "ordeal".  I have said it before and I will continue to say and believe God has healed me and will use this for His good!  This battle that wages inside of me is not flesh and blood, it's spiritual.  Evil forces are everywhere but I know that I KNOW God is surrounding me and His protection is ever present. 


This morning we received a call from the oncologist's nurse.  :  She said: "Hey guys!  The results are back from the bone marrow and we can't find ANYthing ANYwhere!  We ran ALL KINDS of tests and NOTHING is showing up!"   AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAH


I KNEW IT!!!  GOD IS SOOOO GOOD!!  Many of you reading this will think:  yeah, but...  just STOP.  RIGHT.  THERE!!  I told yall it was going to be okay!  I am thankful for my doctors and will continue to pray for them, but no....they won't be able to "figure me out" because this battle is not flesh and blood.  I LOOOVE HOW GOD IS SHOWING UP!!!  THIS. IS. AWESOME!!  WHAT A STORY TO SHARE!!! 

Talk and Thoughts

Two POWERFUL words :   TALK AND THOUGHTS

After surgery, many people were wanting the details of my situation.  "Was there a mass in her head?  Is it cancer?  Will she be the "same"?"....many, many questions.  Questions that I am going to be honest, I was not ready to discuss with myself, let alone, anyone else.  (no offense...)  Again, if I am being honest:   I KNOW that I am healed.  Yall...I FEEL it in my VERY INMOST of my being!  I mean:  I FEEEEL MY HEALING!  I know that this is the Lord.  I have never, EVER felt such a PEACE like I have right now.  I do not know what tomorrow holds for me, but I know Who holds my tomorrow. 

There is a song by Third Day that has been on my heart and mind :  It's Allright.  If you've never heard it, google it or look it up.  GREAT message!  Top of my Lungs is another song that resignates what's in my heart these days.  My healing and health comes from the the Great Physician. 

Now:  the title:  Talk and Thoughts....

Do you KNOW how VERY POWERFUL our EVERYDAY words are, people?!  WHEW!  Language...words are windows to our hearts.  Think about that for a moment...the things we SAY are written on our hearts and plop out of our mouths.  YIIIKES!!!  Anyone that knows me, knows I LOOOVE to TALK!!!  About ANYthing...yikes, again!  I fully believe God is working in me about my speech with this very situation.  I do NOT want to hear or be around any negativitiy.  I am trusting that God is guiding my doctors in the way that we should go.  I know that many of you are wanting the details of the "protocol"...again:  I am asking you to trust the Lord with me on HIS DIVINE direction with my doctors. 

ROCKED TO THE CORE

To "say" my life has been tuned UPSIDE, INSIDE out doesn't really do the words justice.  I have truly been ROCKED, SHAKEN, and TURNED INSIDE OUT to the very CORE OF MY BEING. 

God is so good, yall! 

The last 3 weeks have definitely been a whirlwind.  Headaches.  It's kinda crazy how my headaches (people:  not just "headaches"--I am talking:  sheer grinding, excruciating, wanting to HURT SOMETHING BECAUSE I AM IN CONSTANT PAIN headaches)  Obviously now looking back, I let them go way too long.  Being the ever-prideful, strong-woman (or so I thought)--I had the attitude of "I've got this...it'll go away"....humph....welp....6-8 weeks of agony and a brain surgery later...here. I . am!  :0)  THANK THE GOOD LORD I AM PAIN FREE!! 

If you are reading this, I want to say:  thank you!  So many people have reached out and loved up on our family in various ways and we are grateful.  The food, cards, calls, visits...the effort is truly appreciated on a level I cannot express with words. 

My healing is coming along BEEAUTIFULLY!!  :0)  I had the staples in my head removed last week (whhoop wooo)  Thanks to my friends that sent texts asking if I was "demagnetized"---uhhh.....DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE TALKING TO?  NO!  YOU KNOW I AM MAGNETIC, PEEPS!!!  MUAH!!!  --uhh...and since we're on the subject of staples:  STAPLES!!!  IN. MY. HEAD???  SEEERIOUSLY....cuh-RAZ-Y!!!  Again:  GOD. IS. GOOD!!  The staples will defintely bring laughter down the road with friends and family for years to come, I'm sure, and in some sick kind of way:  I LOVE IT!  I am just so thankful to be here and the opportunity to share...love life right now. 

Anyway--talk and thoughts.  These are the words that keep ringing in my head.  So much God has revealed to me on SUCH a REAL WAY.  I can't wait to share with you.  Soon. 

Until then--  LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH!!!  TRULY!! LIFE. IS. TOO. SHORT!!!

The Things That We Do....

Head back to doc tomorrow to see if I actually tore my MCL ... grrrr ..... hopefully all is well, but been down and out for about 3 weeks.  We really take for granted how much we actually USE our KNEES!!!  Especially in my line of work!  Anyway--prayers that I am UP AND MOVING SOON!!!  THANKS!!!

Spring Break

Spring break, ALREADY!?  The old saying : time speeds up with age, is so true!  Sheesh!  I canNOT believe we are already at spring break!  Before you know it, we'll be looking at  summatime!  WOOOOHOOOO MYYYY FAVORITE!!! 

 So much has happened since my last post.   Our dear friend lost his life to an awful disease: colon cancer.  I can't believe he's gone.  My heart aches for his wife and children.  Makes you stop and think how we aren't, no matter what we may think, invincible.  To say his service was "moving", doesn't really give it justice.   Over 700 people rang cowbells when he left the church.   I'm choking back tears simply thinking of the moment.  Yes sir, Scott, we got those ole Rebels to ring 'em loud and proud, all for you, my friend!  Yes, he would've been so proud.  I truly DO  believe he is celebrating beside our Heavenly Father and one day, he will greet me as I walk through the Pearly Gates.  Miss him terribly in the meantime...

Baseball has cranked up in full force.  This year, though, BOTH boys will be participating in the competitive realm.  Honestly, I don't remember what life is like without baseball to get us through the days, weeks, months....

I'm going back to get my Masters this summer.  Should be interesting...lots of work, but I know the payoff will be great in the end.  15 years of doing what I love....talk about time passing quickly!! 

Welp--hope all yall enjoy the beautiful spring weather!  Easter is knocking at our doors!  YAY! One of my favorite times of year! 

Cheatin'

February 1.  Time to start.  I cannot BE.LIEEEVE I have not run in two months!  2 months!!! 
    Here are my excuses:  1.  "they" say to take one day off for every mile you ran after a marathon, hence, 26 days, right?     2.  hubby has been hunting, therefore, no daylight     3.  we have spent a LOT of time with our friends, we know we're on borrowed time with one   4.  ???  I'm out of excuses....

  The REASON:  I have JUST been TOO. DARN.  LAZY!! 
  
  So where does one begin after several weeks of nontraining, you ask?  From. the. BEGINNING!!!  Ugh....In my heart of hearts, I would love to trek out and hit 5 miles, but in my smarts (yes, they're there!) I know I mustn't crank up like I am some bad to the bone machine.  After all, respect your body and it'll respect you.  So, back to the grind....Couch to 5K.  Yep, that's where I am....sorta.  In the beginning, the program only takes you 1.5 miles. I just can't stop with that...yall know me too well, soooo, it's 3 for me.  I have run 3 miles since my college days, so I truly think my body is accustomed to THAT.  Anything over 3, I'm pushing it, so, for now, I will stick with 3 and a little couch to 5k training.  :0)

I can already feel my legs screaming:  WHAT!?    NOW!?!   


LOVE.  IT. 

Happy running!!!